Weight: + 2
2014 Weight loss: 11 pounds
Weight loss: 52 pounds
Yeah, so I'm upset that this extra 2 lbs has been hanging onto my stomach. My face, legs, and feet are fine, but my stomach is not. That picture is also helpful to see that I desperately need a bra fitting. My back is actually rather flat, which is something my trainer is extremely pleased about. My butt width has shrunk. My shoulder and cape area is good. But that damn stomach...ugh.
It's been harder this year. Once you hit a big loss, it gets really hard to lose even more. As I was discussing with my husband today, I'm terrified of going back to 2009-2010 when I gained back the Weight Watchers loss. Granted, I have a bigger loss now and a better body transformation...but with the way I've been making some shitty choices, and the way my stomach feels right now...I'm scared, ok? I refuse to go backwards. This has to just be a temporary bump.
While I'm on the topic, I have to thank my husband for being the most supportive, loving, and motivating person I know. Sure, we've fought about some things (he's kind of black and white with his viewpoint), but he ultimately cares about my health, my well being, my mental state and stress level, and he does everything he can for me. I'm seriously lucky. I don't know if I could be doing this without him. My best friends have been amazing, and all the wonderful people I know personally and online that have been supporting me are fantastic. I have a support system everywhere I look. Not many people can say that, and I truly appreciate it. But to have someone who knows me so intimately and who is in love with me no matter what size I am...yeah, I am grateful every day to have married such a wonderful man.
You can all stop dry heaving now! I'm going to move on to pictures.
One of my last days at the office.
I made sure to look my best that last week.
2nd to last ugly bathroom selfie...
Last day, last ugly bathroom selfie!
Love my elephant dress, but it really is best with tights, so I'm saving it for the fall.
Flipping a shit during NPH's performance of Sugar Daddy during the Tony's. Hedwig and the Angry Inch is my lifeline. The one time I wish my husband videoed me!
This tank top is getting downright obscene with its bagginess. It's actually quite 80s now, I should wear a cute neon bra underneath it or something.
New work bathroom selfie!! Woooo! Check out the brightness, cleanliness, and privacy! Oh, and my Twin Peaks skirt was falling off me when I didn't have it folded over.
Making it back to the gym...need to keep freakin' doing this.
Of course my grandmother had to comment on how horizontal stripes make you look wider. SIGH. I like the shirt (we got a nice Old Navy sale haul), so WHATEVER.
So, yeah. I don't look terrible, and a lot of my summer clothes are hanging, but I don't feel good, and I could look much better. Plain and simple. I've had a month to get adjusted to this job. No more excuses. I have new sneakers.
No more excuses. I have pretty support for my feet.
I could really use some extra support this month, to be honest. I hate asking like that, but I just need to be held accountable. I had fun food. My trainer does not berate me. She just says, "Ok, and do you feel a difference now that you had that and no veggies?" My affirmation makes her happy because I'm able to acknowledge that my body needs healthy food and exercise with moderate treats. I'm happy that I'm not in denial over this fact as well. That's definitely an improvement over last year.
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